Thursday, August 9, 2018

मौत

मौत | यह एक ऐसा लव्ज़ है जिसको सुनकर भी अक्सर अनसुना कर दिया जाता है | हम जीते हैं तो ऐसे मानो मौत कभी आनी ही नहीं है | मैंने भी कभी ज़्यादा ध्यान नहीं दिया था आज से पहले | जानती थी मृत्यु आनी है , पर मृत्यु का खौफ क्या है , क्या होता है , ये पता नहीं था | आज उस खौफ से रूबरू हुई, परिस्थिति पेचीदा थी | मानो अपनी मृत्यु का कारण पता चला  हो, मैं सहम गयी | खौफ ने ज्ञान का आवरण ढक दिया , पर धीरे - धीरे जब हृदय में समता आयी तो आवरण हटता गया , ज्ञान उजागर हुआ | खौफ  मानो धीमे - धीमे  सरकता हुआ , मौत का खौफ , युवा आयु में मृत्यु का खौफ ,  ढेरों सपने लिए गुम हो जाने का खौफ |

शान्ति से बैठी तो इक और ख्याल  आया मन में  - यही कि मरना तो है ही तो क्यूँ न और ढंग से जीयू , सबसे प्रेम से मिलूँ और जितना हो सके इज़्ज़त करूँ लोगों की । इस सोच से ख़ौफ़ जाता रहा , हृदय में मानो जैसे कोई और ही उमंग की लहर दौड़ गयी हो । आज शाम जिस से भी मिली मुस्कुरा कर मिली, जिसके लिए कुछ कर सकती थी तो हाथ आगे बढ़ा  दिया, किसी की पीठ थपथपा दी तो किसी को गले लगा लिया । आज किसी भी बात पर क्रोध नहीं आया, न किसी व्यक्ति पर , न किसी परिस्थिति पर , सिर्फ़ एक ही तो लक्ष्य था - ढंग से जीने का , जितना जीवन है प्रेम से जीने का ।

मेरी मृत्यु कभी भी हो सकती है ,  चाहते हुए भी मैं कुछ कर नहीं पाऊँगी , लेकिन जब तक साँसे हैं तब तक ख़ुशियाँ तो बिखेर ही सकतीं हूँ। ये भी मालूम है मुझे  कि भूल जाऊँगी जल्द ही जो आज सीखा है मैंने, पर आज से पहले मृत्यु का ख़ौफ़ क्या होता है जानती नहीं थी । अभी भी कहाँ जानती हूँ, पर ये जानती हूँ कि जीते जी मर जाना -  यही शायद मृत्यु पर विजय है । 

Sunday, August 5, 2018

First Sunday of the month of August

That surprisingly pleasant moment when your flatmate comes and says, "Happy Friendship Day". That's when I realised, "Oh Yes! The first Sunday of the month of August". So, I thought of writing today on the occasion of friendship day :) 

Friend more than anything else is a confidant, someone in front of whom we can be bare and admit the worst of our mistakes,   wildest of our dreams and fantasies, shortcomings, deepest of our evils, never-before-told secrets, stories of love, heartbreaks and feel liberated. It really helps to have that someone with whom we can discuss our "weakest of moments", "our moments of vulnerability, our line of thought which might not be appropriate " and that person always always reminds us of the "inherent and natural light in us" and never fails to see "that light" in us. This trust and ability to see that light helps, I have experienced this in my life.  That's what friendship really is I feel. I am grateful that I have such kind of people around. Friend can be in any form, in form of a mentor, in form of a trainer, in form of a colleague and of course, the friends we make in our life's journey. 

It is the kind of relationship that seeks nothing but trust and thrives on trust, regular watering may not be available to this plant of friendship but it thrives and that to me is miraculous and nothing short of magical. Friends can be an anodyne in this otherwise tricky and funny life and this is not the wisdom I always had, only now it seems to be slowly seeping in my mind. 

I am also a friend to some and I have realised one thing that among lovers, beloveds and true friends, the common denominator is always a true friend. A great friend is a great guide, is like a mother, like a father and sometimes like a lover. Actually most of the times like a lover with the exception that it consists of larger elements of rationality and objectivity not clouded by emotions. This is why in my opinion it is easier to maintain the sanctity of a friendship. Friendship is an opportunity to influence people in ways they never imagined they could be and uplift them to see what they are capable of and to walk along with them,  not necessarily holding hands , ahead in life. But most of all friendship is a responsibility, there is an element of mentor-mentee in friendship, an element of teacher-student and these roles keep on changing and that to me is the beauty of friendship. I read or heard somewhere this adage:  "We do not make friends with equals, friendship makes us equal". 

And it must not be forgotten that like any project in life and any responsibility, friendship too is an investment, a great relationship between people is a responsibility whose dignity demands to be taken care of. Friendship is genuine care like that of a mother for her child, it is like a selfless sacrifice of a father for his children and its like a prayer and wish without any temptation or urgency to be expressed.  

I think friendship is a gift seldom realised until lost. So today if you have that someone, a confidant, a person you can trust then you are rich because in this world stratified with Facebooks, Twitter, Instagrams and Whatsapp, it is an achievement to have a genuine friend, someone who will listen even if you call him/her at 2 am and who will stand right in front of you, if possible, at 3 am just to listen to you, if required. And this will happen not because of emotions but because of clear sense of responsibility and a sense of profound belonging, not to forget an intention to bring peace to the heart of the person who called. 

A great friendship does that, it plants the seed of peace and ignites a light within, which takes care of our life. Let us become the harbingers of peace and light in hearts around, let us become better friends. 

Love. 

My trip to Swasthya Swaraj : Computer Lessons

This is a post in continuation of my attempt to share lessons from my visit to Swasthya Swaraj Society. Swasthya Swaraj is a secular, not-...